quick sand... thts how it iz...

the more im tryin to come out...

the more im being pulld in...

in to its deep darkness…

unknown territories…

alienish smellz…

tormenting soundz…

feels like its grabbin me from all sides...

every angle...

any side i see...

my eyes get mudded...

the slime gettin into my eyes...

blockin my vision...

it enters my nostrils...

making me gasp for air...

as i gasp...

it enters my throat...

chokin me...

as it enters my lungs...

i cough... it aches...

aches in my chest...

burns...

i feel the bile churnin in my guts...

the sores in my intestines turn red...

emitting fumes...

the smoke comes out of my mouth...

tears roll down my dirty cheeks...

sad...

sad tht im not crying...

i dont feel like crying...

still am numb...

deep down...

some where...

im still cold...

the frozen self...

under the rutt...

dark n lightless...

shiverin...

holdin my hands together...

not to pray...

but to hold my self...

to my self...

not to let any thing take me...

from me...

koz i know...

i know this for sure...

even if im az cold az the ice caps...

im together...

with me...

for me...

always...

all ways...

nothing can ever change it...

ever...

never...

no one can ever take whats mine…

live on… i will…

surely…

koz…

born survivor… that’s ME!!!

P.S. --- strong az a bul… daz wat diz bitch iz al abt… da reezun behind dis shit iz… im bein testd at ma wurk place… dey r tryin 2 bul shit roun mua… itz been goin aroun fo mo dan a munth nw… aktualy i think it wud b 2 munthz in anoda kupl uf dayz… dey r tryin reeyal hard… muthr-fuckin-sunz-uv-wyte-kuntz... n itz juz dat dey wana hear “i giv up” frum me… kan ya imajin???... frum MUA???... not evin in der fuckin dreemz kan dey get me 2 tel dat… im drivin dem krazy… n itz vizibl dat dey r on da brink uf loozin deir sanity… im havin fun… fun in both wayz… bein pushd 2 da wal n turning deir livz in2 fuckin hel… dey hav been surchin nyoo wayz eech n evri day… viyardest shyte… i reeyaly em Njoin it… fuckin doze assolez frum al posibl wayz... havin time uf ma life… bein wat im alwiz gud at… da numaro uno ‘BITCH’… peace!!!