dancing in the loneliness of my solitude...

swaying my self to the death tune...

lip sinking to the words of the song...

not missing a single syllable...

the stringz hit the highest note...

i bob my head as the beat goes high...

completely engulfed in the mood now...

enjoying the pain passing by...

the nip i feel on the edges...

edges of the incised skin...

scalpel helped me to make these  crevices...

warmness i feel …

as blood pours through…

running down my hand…

as i swing... red sprays around...

making my abode a living canvas...

im painting it with my own blood...

for you... you... you... FUCK!!!

are you even seeing it???

will you even see it???

i want you to see it...

i want you to see it...

the way i danced before i died...

the way i lost before i tried...

the way i felt before i cried...

the way i bled before i dried...

die i want to...

but a death by you...

would be a dream come true...

wont screech or scream...

all i would be reminiscing after my death is...

the smile...

the smile you had on your lips...

when you were digging ...

digging deep in my chest...

to pull out my heart...

to see if i really felt the pain i told...

did it help???

did you get to see my pain???

dont say 'yes'...

for FUCKS SAKE... dont FUCKIN say YES...

just throw my heart...

as far as …from you can be...

because if you know me...

you know death cannot stop how i feel for you...

my heart would still bleed for you...

might not beat...

but bleed surely will...

the spurts will call out your name...

and in the gushes all you can hear...

is the death song i played before i died...

P.S. --- inspirashun... o wht evvr fuck yu wanna kal it... waz agin DEVIL-HED... had ampl time in da fuckin ni8... saw hiz cummntz on ma blog... juz vizitd hiz ilan... startd reedin hiz stuff... n az alwiz... ma itch startd... n rezultd in da skum ... the RED-SHIT i postd abuv... waz reedin em n at da same time lisnin 2 ma fav ... maseeyah... n kudnt stop da kakoithis ... satan help mua... stil feel like ri8in... aint yet fuckin satisfied... i mi8 ri8 mo 2day... but wont post it fo shoor... 1 post iz enuf uf torchur fo 1 time... peace!!!